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Memories that were left behind...
My pals;

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Tuesday, September 07, 2004

Finally, clear a tiny bit of CMSY report.. as usual, dun haf the mood to continue with my work.. so jus pop in again to blog..

Sometimes i wonder, am i one that friends trust ? I try to accomodate to friends' needs but very often, this "privilege" is taken for granted. Its just hard to get your mouth open and voice out to them abt their unwelcome behaviour.. Even if you do, it will just invite some unwanted misuderstandings. Some just speak off their mind without considering the feelings of others. Over sensitive is an issue that is always bothering me. Sometimes, you'll be pin on without knowing why. I guess being a "hyprocrite" is inevitable at times. You may not always present the true self. i dunno ... perhaps this is life.. and thats why friends are tough to understand. I dunno but i believe that some things are just meant to be. Having a optimist view to problems may be the first step to solve it. Secrets are shared only when trust is there but it doesnt mean that there is no trust when secrets are not shared. Hmmz... what am i trying to get to? lol anyway i do appreciate a lot when friends tells a secret of their own. It may be a small secret but it just means a lot.

eh quite crappy today.. guess projects are the culprits behind. *Yawn* it getting late.. Didnt really sleep much yester... Think it's time for me to pop into my bed.. shall end my craps here for now zZzZzz...


:+:+:+: * Late at night when all the world is sleeping I stay up late and think of you and I wish on a star That somewhere you are thinking of me too 'Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight.... Wonder if you ever see me and I wonder if you Know I'm there (Am I there) If you looked in my eyes would you see what's inside ? Would you even care ? ... I just wanna hold you close but so far All I have are dreams of you So I'll wait for the day and the courage to say How much I love you * :+:+:+:

So near... yet so far... guess the distance between the Heaven and Earth is never as far as the distance between a heart and another which is just beside each other nt knowing of "his" presence ... T.T


:+:+:Dreamt by me:+:+:
|| 2:31 AM

One night a man had a dream.
he dreamed that he was walking along
the beach with the LORD.

across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
for each scene he noticed two sets of
footprints in the sand: one belonging
to him, and the other to the LORD.

when the last scene of his life
flashed before him,
he looked back at the footprints
in the sand.

he noticed that many times
along the path of his life
there was only one set of footprints.

he also noticed that it happened
at the very lowest and saddest times
in his life.

this really bothered him and he
questioned the LORD about it:
"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you'd walk with me all the way.
but I have noticed that during the most
troublesome times in my life,
there is only one set of footprints. 
i  don't understand why when 
i needed you most you would leave me."

The LORD replied:
"my son, my precious child,
i love you and i would never leave you.
during your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."