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Memories that were left behind...
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Monday, January 24, 2005

Tests haf just ended today.. can finally rest my mind..very tired.. but cant get to slp.. get up frm my bed and decided to blog..
Chinese new year is coming but i suppose the chinese new year this year will be very much different... Frm the day i was born, my grandma is the only grandparents tt i haf.. my uncle and cousin used to live wif her until they got a new house and moved, leaving my grandma all alone... yes it was lonely but tt was nth much tt she could do... my uncle haf try asking her over.. but she didnt really welcome the idea... who knows.. perharps the house left her wif many unforgotton and cherished memories.. Without fail, we would celebrate our new year at my grandma's house and the place will always be soooo packed that you can hardly find a place to stand around... but the feeling is gd.. everybody crowding around..the joys and laughters.."long ah.. ur hongbao.."I would den present 2 lovely oranges to my grandma..the smile tt she wear on her face..so warmth.. every thing will always come to an end.. at the end of the day everybody left the place and the place is filled wif emptiness agn.. the only major gathering tt we haf annually has ended...
As time flies, my grandma's health wasnt what it was.. she had to undergo operation at age of 80 plus.. things worsened when she suffered a fall recently.. she was admitted into hospital..
I stood in front of the bed staring at her... her eyes were closed.. we knew that she could hear us.. but she just couldnt open her eyes.. days ltr.. both her hands suffered frm stroke... she could nt move.. we can hear her breathing... so fast.. she had to rely on the oxygen mask now... doc tor said tt there was nth much they can do...her conditioned worsened each day..
She may leave any now and then.. but theres nth much we can do.. its saddening to see another person in ur life leaves.. but this is life.. really hope that she will be fine.. really..


:+:+:Dreamt by me:+:+:
|| 7:10 AM

One night a man had a dream.
he dreamed that he was walking along
the beach with the LORD.

across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
for each scene he noticed two sets of
footprints in the sand: one belonging
to him, and the other to the LORD.

when the last scene of his life
flashed before him,
he looked back at the footprints
in the sand.

he noticed that many times
along the path of his life
there was only one set of footprints.

he also noticed that it happened
at the very lowest and saddest times
in his life.

this really bothered him and he
questioned the LORD about it:
"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you'd walk with me all the way.
but I have noticed that during the most
troublesome times in my life,
there is only one set of footprints. 
i  don't understand why when 
i needed you most you would leave me."

The LORD replied:
"my son, my precious child,
i love you and i would never leave you.
during your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."